Just a little light reading today.
Everyone has wounds and trauma. Most people in the world just cover them up and become robotic (disassociate), numb (pills, alcohol, drugs) , passive aggressive, etc . Anything to not deal with it.
I see it, I don’t ignore it. I get loud . I get pushy. I react , I’m not proud of me all the time.
But I FEEL.
I feel deeply and it HURTS. And I would rather feel the sadness, the pain , the loss , the regret. Than feel nothing at all. Every. Single. Time.
“This is what it is to be ALIVE. It’s messy. It’s not peaceful. It doesn’t feel “perfect”.
To see and appreciate , to recognize and understand the OTHER side of the thing , you have to make this part of the journey too . It’s not bad. It’s not wrong. It’s human.
To fully see and understand the divine beauty of a thing you have to experience , embrace and accept all the parts of it and let resistance and judgment fall away.
It is a release , a surrender a letting go of the ego and it’s not an easy choice for most to make – for you or the people around you to do for you – most hang on to being “right” and push away true healing and acceptance. (aka love, the real kind).
“The me who is born on the other side of the process is the me I was always meant to be”.
I will always do the work. That is my commitment to myself first and foremost.
Sometimes it’s not “fast” enough for other people.
Sometimes other people can’t make the time and space to discuss , support and communicate with you
Sometimes other people make your emotional crisis about them , because so often we internalize what’s happening around us as to us.
Sometimes your closest people abandon you to your own demons because it’s too much for them
Sometimes you can’t just “make it all okay” right now . Sometimes it’s just not okay . And maybe that’s the way it’s meant to be
Divine timing for our greatest good. I will honor my process. That is the only thing to do. And learn to submit , release and surrender.
Life is happening FOR each of us every single day , not to us.